Last day on January 2010 (:

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Ga kerasa bngt, it is the last day of January 2010! (: feels like just last week the world turns to 2010. Udah sebulan ga taunya ya! (: so it is 9.02, less than 3 hours to February! XD

Di 31 Januari 2010 ini, gw menghabiskan waktu gw jalan2 ke Glodok memburu bermacam-macam DVD!!! I've got a lot of them!!!!! Alvin and the Chipmunks 2, This is It, etc. So happy! :D then I got this stoopid CD, yg cm involes 5-6 songs out of 16! shit I spent 5 thous for 6 songs?! damn! but it's okay. at least i have the list of the songs (= gw bakal download. hahahaha

akhirnya gw bs nonton sepuas2nya ni hari ampe malemm muahahahah!

the best thing ever, gw ga ad PR!!! :D Tuhan baik bngt di akhir bulan ini yaaaaaaaaaaaa! =D

Oh ya! sejak 29/30 Januari, gw lg sangat amat mencintai Suri Cruise, anak aktor Tom Cruise. She's so adorable!!! Way too adorable. gw koleksi fotonya & mengumpulkan lebih dr 15 foto. Dengan koleksi itu, gw edit 1 yg simple banget.....



















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& tgl 30 kmrn gw harus say bye to my long-hair. gw pikir pendek, well ga sependek SEKARANG tuh bagus. pertama d gunting kyk sedikit.... tb2 tukang salonnya blg: "kurang pendek ga? saya gunting lg y 2cm" . NAH gw itu lg itung 2cm, & hasilnya, dy gunting kyk 8cm actually! gw bisa gila... this is such a nightmaree.. ini rambut pendekkk bngtt. & I'll kuncir this til' i got my long hair back. which will takes long time. ):

xx

Imperfect Life

Hari ini, seperti biasa, gw pasti ada ribut sama bokap. Ya hal yang kecil yg di ubah jadi sebesar gajah. Hal biasa BANGET buat kita. Tapi hari ini jadi seperti malam puncaknya. Kalau orang2 malam puncaknya di laluin dgn tawa canda dan lain2...ga untuk gw... Bokap mulai ngomongin berbagai hal yang ga nymbung... Tadi dia luangin smua isi hatinya, keselnya dia & dari cara dy ngmg, gw ngerasa dia benci ama kita, anak- anaknya? Dia lakuin smua ini karena terpaksa? Tulus ga sih?

Ada suatu saat tadi dia ngmg & tujuannya ke gw... "Ting, apa sih yang lu ga pny d rmh?" & itu salah satu yang bikin gw langsung kebayang jawabannya.. kl gw boleh jawab & ga akan dimarahin, gw pasti jawab. Gw tw gw akan d marahin krn itu gw ga jawab. Cukup hati gw & yang baca aja yg tau. Jawaban gw untung pertanyaan itu, "Yang ting ga pny d rmh itu kasih sayang yg tulus dr ortu".... stelah itu gw nangis. Bahkan ampe tulis lg di blog aja, gw harus nangis. Cengeng ya. Tapi gitu... Makanya, gw lebih mau meluangkan waktu gw sm tmn2 gw. Buat gw (yg mksdnya blm tntu) cm tmn2 gw yg ngrti gw, yg bs gw syg & mrk jg ga mrh... yang bisa di ajak ngmg & mrk ngertiin perasaan gw. Ada sih waktu dimana gw kdg tangisin beberapa temen gw. Tapi diitung dgn mat & dari liter, gw lbh bnyk tangisin kluarga gw. Yang slalu gw pikir, "o oh, we're gonna crash..." gw ga mw tp stiap kjadian ini ada gw pasti pikir gt.

Tadi pagi dy ngmg lg k koko gw & gw "pna ga sih kalian dgrin papa mama? say sorry?" stiap kali gw mau bgitu, gw malu untuk ngmgnya. Bahkan gw malu untuk ngmg I love You, Mom & Dad... bkn malu krn mrknya....malu krn gw ga brn ngmg. tapi jujur, gw paling syg am mrk.. kl mrk ngmg gw injek2 mrk, gw bakal pikir gw ga tolol untuk benci orang2 yang bs d beli besarin gw ampe sgede gajah... yang ajarin gw bnyk hal. & jujur aj gw ga pna ada maksud bikin mrk malu. kl mrk malu, gw jg malu. gw tw mrk malu gw bego d pljran, tp gw ud cb cm kurang aja & ga ad mksd untuk bikin malu. Tadi jg dy ngmg otak kiri (otak seni) gw kcil. ini sih jahat cm bnran: "gw bs main piano, gw bs sdikit gitar, gw bs sdikit biola. papa cm bs gitar itu pun ud lp pasti." pasti pemikiran kita, otak sp lbh kcil? itu cm jokes.

& skrg gw bs tng, gw blm total msk kristen tp gw yakin Tuhan itu ada. Stiap gw ad masalah am kluarga, gw crt k 1 tmn gw & Tuhan... Rasanya Tuhan ksh gw ktenangan ntah dr doa, alkitab atau apa aja.

gw cm brani tulis disini, I love you mom, I love you dad. & sorry for everything I've done. Cause I ain't perfect.

xx.

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18 01 10: patokan akhir paling sakit (u)

Jadi ini kejadian tanggal 18 Januari 2010... Banyak bngt unbelievable things happen & semuanya ga ada yang bisa bikin gw senyum... It's like all total disaster to me! & if only I could wish one thing, I want today was not even exist.

... I won't tell everything here. But, for sure, the last part is the most hurts me a lot.

I wish...well what for...let God give the best.

Don't think it needs title.

I saw it & it just really hurts to saw it. I mean after everything has been told. It was hurts but it's true. Sometimes I just have to face the true. You know, even though it's super duper uber HARD.

Apa Tuhan mau gw apus semuanya & idup bahagia tanpa ada sesuatu yg sakitin? Apa Tuhan lg ksh tw gw kl gw pasti disakitin jadi mending lupain? idk well.

Kyknya everything hurts smuanya terjadi LANGSUNG dtg gt.

ta ta everyone, need some rest!

GOD

This post I wrote like a week ago on a bus in Singapore. I need God's way and this is what I wrote...

God, You are my diary,
You know what I feel right now,
You know what I want right now,
You know what I need right now,
You know what's important for me,
You know who I need (besides You),
You know who I care about,
You know what happen to me,
You know things I'll do in a second later,
You know the best for me,
Give me your way to pass everything painful with smile♥

Neysooo♥